Thursday, January 31, 2008

Happy New Year and Happy Groundhog Day!

So much has happened since I last wrote both personally and on the job. I've received some new funds- who couldn't use an extra few bucks in today's unstable economy? I've also met some new people and have been hanging out as well. The new year has brought some great changes with it. I'm starting to like the DMV more- it helps when you know people and can hang out with them or know that they are a phone call away. However, things between my boyfriend have been really strange- it's like we just can't shake each other. We "broke up" last Saturday and Wednesday was the first I talked to him since. It will be interesting to see how this all plays out... I know my reason for straying or withdrawing, I've come to a point where I feel like I need my space. After going back and forth in my mind about I've come to the conclusion that is my answer. For fear of hurting his feelings I have not told how I felt until Tuesday...in an email. I must get better with this- he now wants to see me on Friday but I may have plans and I wish that he would respect that I do have a life and would like to do other things with my weekend. That is another part of the issue, let me just stop here.

The job- my boss has been promoted which means more work for me! I was thinking of asking for a promotion myself but after consulting with my wise sister we decided now wouldn't be the best time because of all that is going on with her new duties. My sister told me to revisit in a few more months- I've been in prayer about this and perhaps in a few months this could be feasible! Things are getting better on the job- I had been faced with feelings of abuse. You know when you're the one on the bottom of the totem pole people think you are supposed to do every little thing at a moment's notice. Well, I do because I don't want to be seen as someone who is not a team player. So, I bought a book that has been extremely helpful combating my niceness, it's called "Too Nice for Your Own Good". If you too suffer from niceness this book has the remedy. I also bought another book, "Women Don't Ask". The title pretty much sums it up- I'm only in the introduction, but it talks about staggering salary and living conditions among men and women and how they have to be if women would just ask. I can't wait to begin fully reading that one. So, since I went to my training back in November and have been reading these books I have noticed changes in the way I handle myself and deal with co-workers as well as friends and family.